Did you know?

Have you heard of Austin Brown?
He's a new artist that I just fell in love with. He has out a song called Menage e trois....dance number. The thing is, he's in the Jackson family. But I didn't have a clue he was until I read his bio on his site! Such a fresh face, with a cute song :)

I love it!


P.S. Whitney Houston's funeral was today and it was absolutely THE best homegoing service for anyone I've seen televised my entire life. I'm positive some souls were saved today......

The L Word

8 letters.

1 meaning.

2 hearts.

combined.

i. love. you.

what do you do when the words you've been waiting to hear are told to you,
....but you didn't respond at all how you'd planned?


Got a Valentine's day card today, a day late, but nonetheless a card that I wasn't expecting.
Definitely wasn't expecting to read WHAT was in the card. 


Guess I should give a little history...
This guy, I've been dealing with him for what seems like an eternity. I've tried numerous times to walk away, but something keeps pulling me back. It's been almost two years of dealing with him & this thing we have. Never a relationship, lots of talks of being in one. I'd never asked a guy to be my boyfriend, it got to that point. He broke that virginity of mine, matter of fact I've asked a few times.  I've been declined each one. He's almost 30, I'm almost 25. I love him and I'm in love with him....until today I never knew he felt the same way. 


Which leads me back to the card.
Handwritten in black ink was the following:

We have been on this "road" a long time, and its bout time we change that. The time will come when we are one, but until then, continue being the Lo I fell in love with.

After reading this NUMEROUS times, here are a few things my wandering mind has conjured up:

1. 1. He admitted he's in love with me, finally
2. 2. Why does he say "its about time we change that" only to immediately say "the time will come when we are one"??
3. 3. How much longer am I expected to wait? An eternity is a mighty long time
4. 4. Why be so cliche and wait until this time of the year to express feelings
5. 5. Kudos for opening up, b/c he NEVER does
6. 6. How will this confession change "us"?

Now these are just a few of the millions of things running across my mind. I sent him a text thanking him for the card. I followed that text with another that simply said: "you do know I over analyze, right?"....his response, a simple "yes". 


So the way the confession was worded was intentional? Was the intention to open a can of worms to get my mind wondering? In due time, these questions will be answered.


UNC is playing right now, so I dare not call ;) (go heels!)


I intentionally thought the day he told me he was in love with me, I'd cry or be in total shock. But my response was "cute". He already knows I love him. No doubts at all. I see myself with him, I'm sure that's mutual. I understand I can't rush life or the way things play out. But I do know that everything happens for a reason. I've stuck around this long, so why throw in the towel now? I hate the comfortable stage aka gray area, but that's just where it is right now. I try to change that, but after a while when you keep pushing the door open and it gets closed in your face, you just wait for the person on the other end to open up.....or you walk away. I'm just waiting for the door to open all the way. This card was the crack. I really do love him, and I'm genuinely in love with him as well. But what's love got to do with it?!?


But I'll end this blog the same way I started it......

8 letters.

1 meaning.

2 hearts.

combined.

i. love. you.

Happy Valentine's Day

IF you have a valentine or not, Jesus loves you :) Be happy you're able to read this....
I'm anti V-Day, I have my reasons. So I'm going to give some happy V-Day stuff followed by a funny song :)

Miss Otis Regrets.....click here :)

Excited!

Even though we know how much money we make, I'm excited that I have funds left over to do a little bit of "me" stuff with.....I paid all of my bills, and there is still an ample amount of funds in my account.

Yes, at this point in my life I'm a single mom that lives paycheck to paycheck, with hardly any help from my son's father. But that's what makes me even stronger. Knowing I'm able to provide for him without too much help (from my mom)....

The God I know is pretty awesome :) Happy Friday folks!

Funny Tees

All of these tees can be found on snorgtees.com

Music :)

Bad Girls
Hustlin'
Gone
Made Love Lately

OhMyLanta!---this is from 2010

SoD:: Let it Snow--Boys II Men (since it did snow today, that's the least Ican do. Snow and I aren't friends, so yeah)

So i'm really pissed that I'd written a long ass blog and my desktop just deleted it.....like really though?!? Fkin technology, after all I'd typed, there isn't even a way to get it back. Go fkin figure.....

So I'll just give you the short version instead::

1. Dad had a heartattack. Can't work anymore, in dialysis
2. Mom is the same
3. Mama, me & Mo are planning on taking a cruise in october/november of 2011
4. Myles will be 1 on 1/15/11, so I'm planning his party
5. He will be with his dad for Christmas
6. I'm trying to figure out if I'm going to DC or if Mo is coming here for NYE.
7. I found a bangin ass dress that I"m planning on wearing for NYE as well!
8. I got a job *finally & thank God*

I dont remember what else I'd said but yea, y'all be good now!

besos. xo

what is love??

LoVE

As defined on Wikipedia:

Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment

Love is also a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection; and "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another"

Definition from Merriam-Webster:

(1) : strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties  (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests

Love is You

As it nears Valentine's Day, and me being almost 25 years old, I'm starting to believe love is a privilege. You can't just love anybody. There has to be a special bond, a connection. I also know there is a difference between loving someone and being IN love. 

I'm IN love with my son. I love my life. I will one day be IN love with a man. I love men.....I'm IN love with God.....get the picture?!? I often wonder what makes someone fall IN love, rather than just loving somebody. I've had men tell me they love me....but never been IN love with me. It's aggravating to hear that over and over again. 

At the end of the day though, I realize God has it all under control.  So as annoyed as I may get, I realize in due time everything will be under control :)

So tell me, what's your definition of love??

life as we know it.....

Life.

Never Take it for granted. Most of the pix were taken from a chick who killed herself. When somebody cries out for help, why do we turn a cold shoulder??

When somebody commits suicide, as a believer of Christ, I know they aren't going to Heaven. One of the 10 Commandments is "thou shall not kill".....

Think about it.